Consistently shunned and discriminated against”

I am a graduate student. I was jogging on Sunday and a woman yelled at me loudly and repeatedly "Go back to hell, go back to China. Your country is hell."

I was caught off guard and I froze for a moment. Then I tried to say something to defend myself but it came out nonsense. I choked and stuttered for a minute and I then ran away. Afterwards, I felt so angry with myself because I was so weak and completely forgot how to defend myself. I felt so powerless, I thought that I should have fire back with words since this was not the first incident that happened to me.

Over the past 5 months I have been the target of many curse words around my area. Every time, I promised myself to record the next time this happens, but every time I freeze up and fail to do anything. I was so angry and had no way to seek justice for so many times, and that day was just a tipping point for me. I couldn't take it anymore. I cried when I got home in the shower and then the whole night. It has become too difficult to handle and I barely sleep right now. I just don't know how to fight back and take back some of my dignity. I feel useless, but I want to change that and that is why I am here. I want to help every Asian faces for the right of my people, and take back what those people has taken from me -- my agency as a human being. Please tell me whatever I can do to fight back.